A plethora of completely disconnected thoughts.

Breaking the small habits...not so sure about the big ones...

I am a chronic nail-biter. It's been an awful habit of mine for basically my entire life. I chew on my nails when I'm nervous, when I'm anxious, when I'm bored, when I'm hungry...you get the point. More recently it got so bad that I was chewing all of the white ring at the fingertip off, and then chewing past that as well. I was beginning to worry that the white rings at the tip might not grow back, so I told myself last Sunday that I was going to stop biting my nails. I'm happy to say that though I did come very close to biting them a few times over the week, I didn't bite any of them, and they've all grown back. I haven't felt like biting them today or yesterday, either.

I'm cleaning things up. I used to let things gather for weeks on my floor and then I'd spend hours cleaning it all up. My floor is currently empty save for my electrical cords and shoes. The shoes are lined up against the wall, and the cords are tucked under the desk. The trash was taken out this morning. The doors and windows are open to give the air a chance to circulate so the room doesn't smell so stale. Except my suitemate needs the bathroom, so now the bathroom isn't airing out. Oh well. The rest of the room is.

People walk too fast when they don't need to be. Walking fast when you're in a hurry is one thing, but on a Sunday when there's really not much of anything that needs to happen on a schedule, there's no reason to be walking as fast as some of the people around here do. It's beautiful outside. There's a wonderful breeze right now. It's somewhere between 70 and 80 degrees. This is ideal weather, and people are in such a hurry to escape it for some reason. I had a wonderful walk to and from the cafeteria, just moseying along as I did. Gives you a chance to appreciate the things you miss out on on the average day.

I seem to be growing so slowly now. I'm learning to make up for the mistakes I've consistently made before, but I am still missing on so many levels at this point. How long does it take for one to properly collect their thoughts? Am I still on schedule, or am I falling as far behind as I feel like I am? I hope I'm not lagging behind.

School ends in two weeks. The thought of once again needing a job scares me. I suppose I will make do, if nothing else.

Things are going to go well. So long as I remember that and smile, I will be fine.